April 28, 2007

~ Randomly...

My most effective anti-depressant and tranquilizer is back!

And my quirky sister. Yay! My family is physically whole again!

xxx

Big boss: Jancy, today after FGD, have dinner together ok (a statement, not a question).
me: Huh (an exclamation, not a question)! bu4 yong4 ba (a negation, not a question).
Big boss showed obvious lack of wit in responding to my decline of his dinner offer (with clients).
me: No need lah, huh... you can go with them on our own (a statement, definitely).
Big boss: (having found a little wit) We'll see how later lah...

Hours later, the story ended with big boss getting boss to 'talk' to me. Basically, coerce me into going with them to do PR with clients. But, as I said earlier in this blog, boss has been pretty reasonable and nice to me and treated me with due respect as a co-worker, I felt more obliged to agree to his line of reasoning (which centred around 'looking into the future'). So I had a late seafood dinner at Jumbo ECP just now. And totally felt like a vase.

Smart lor, my big boss. Get my boss to manage me. bleah.

xxx

On the way to ECP for the above-mentioned dinner...

boss: Do you find that you are very opinionated?
me: ya! I am ah. My x-boyfriend used to say that I'm very opinionated.
boss: (clapped hands as if he just struck lottery - which on retrospect, was dangerous! He was driving leh, and I'm the passenger leh!) Now we know.
me: Know what?
boss: That you are not a lesbian.
me: Huh? Explain. Opinionated cannot be lesbian?
boss: No. 'Cos you said you had a x-boyfriend mah...
me: Oh. Who ever said have boyfriend before cannot become lesbian? No lor...
boss: Uh, ok lah. Ok. True.
me: Ya. I can always decide to change my orientation.
boss: Ya. Can lah. Why would you change the orientation huh? I know for lesbians, it's usually a decision to change.
me: Not necessarily... Some girls just like girls.

And the next 5 minutes was basically spent with him telling me about his other lesbian friends.

xxx

The point is, your past decisions to have a boyfriend or girlfriend doesn't say anything about your present orientation at all.

I was that close to asking him 'would you be very shocked if I'm a lesbian?' I figured why bother? I'm not even anything now. How can I claim to be anything when I don't even believe in this whole idea of love and relationship now?

But, I don't think he will be shocked. Hmm...

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:49